Falling For You

Sunday, 13th Oct 2013
This was the first day we met. A little bit of fun, a little bit of getting to know each other later, you left. I thought that was the last time I see you.

Monday, 14th Oct 2013
I asked you out for dinner. It was our first official date. I picked you up, you picked the restaurant. The food was just ok, but the ambiance was superb. You stole a kiss when I was sending you home. My heart fluttered a little.

Tuesday, 15th Oct 2013
You brought me home-cooked lunch, because you knew that I just woke up after a grueling night shift of work, and you knew that I must be starving. It was delicious. And I felt warm all over. You stayed for a while, we cuddled a little, and had a nap together, spending the entire evening in bed.

Wednesday, 16th Oct 2013
You needed to go register for your new semester at the college. I spent the day on my own, and I found out that I was already starting to miss you. You came back only at night. You texted me, and I drove over to your house. You bought some delicacies for me. I wanted to kiss you, but there was just no opportunity. So we just talked for a while, and I left.

So here I am. Documenting our sweet memories. I'm not sure what we are. And I don't want to put any labels on us yet. I know that we are so different, but I'm just going to take one step at a time and see where this goes.

Soon, you will be leaving to continue your studies. I just hope that I won't miss you too much.

P.S. I think I'm falling for you.   

Fall.....Falling....

So I got to know this guy recently. I first encountered him from the internet. Gah, so cliché right? :p Can't help it. We ARE living in the 21st century after all. What do you expect?

Then we exchanged phone numbers and started texting. Everyday, no matter rain or shine, day or night, we'll text each other. He'll greet me 'good morning' and 'good night'. He'll remind me to have my lunch/dinner. He'll text me after he finished working. Or after I finished working. Somehow, our texting became a routine. A routine that both of us comfortably slip into. Of course there are healthy amount of flirting as well. 

I'm trying not to get my hopes up before meeting him. I had a not-so-good experience previously with another guy. He turned out not to be what I've expected. We are still friends though. Sort of.

But I really have a good feeling about this guy. Okay that sounds wayyyy to familiar. Deja vu much?!

I don't know how this is going to work though. He's a out-of-towner. I'm extremely terrified to meet him. What if I like him too much? And if we were to become an 'item', how would this LDR work? Or what if I don't like him enough? How do I continue this.... friendship? I don't even know what 'this' is, to be exact. Some days, I just can't wait to meet up with him. Just to know for sure, if whatever 'this' is, could ever work. Even if just to end whatever fantasy that I'm having. Sigh, so many contradicting thoughts and feelings. Nooooo I think I'm turning into a girl. LOL.

I know I will meet him eventually. I'm just crossing my fingers that when the day comes, I won't turn into a nervous wreck and screw this up.

Ok back to watching American Idol. My god, those two judges Steve Tyler and J.Lo really bore me. Interesting contestants though.

Of French and their Kisses

What do you think of french kiss?

I'm not sure yet whether I like it or not. Because I only had experience with one person. Well I kind of like it how he bit my lips. But I didn't really like it when he tried inserting his whole tongue into my mouth. I felt like someone was trying to choke me. LOL. But I guess that's how a french kiss supposed to be right? With lots of tongue.I like how sweet it tasted. Is it going to taste as sweet with other people?

I think hygiene is important too. I can't imagine kissing a guy with a bad breath.

I always wondered why a french kiss is called french kiss. So I decided to google it when I was writing this post. 

From wikipedia:

A French kiss is so-called because at the beginning of the 20th century the French had a reputation for more adventurous and passionate sex practices. In France, it is referred to as baiser amoureux ("lover's kiss") or baiser avec la langue ("kiss with the tongue"), even if in past times it was also known as baiser florentin ("Florentine kiss").

Online crushes

Recently a friend brutally pointed out the molds that started growing at one corner of my blog. Of course I noticed that. I just pretended not to. I'm not even going to give excuses. So here I am. Cleaning up molds.

On another note, can you have a crush on someone that you've never met before?

I was talking quite a lot to this guy I knew online recently. Everyday we are growing closer and more comfortable with each other. Everyday, we are sharing a little bit more of ourselves with each other. We talk about everything, and nothing.

I know it's stupid.

He's so far away. We haven't even met yet. I don't exactly know how he looks like (although I've seen a picture of him, but reality can be so different right?). He's coming down from KL on this weekend for work. He asked me out for dinner. I wanted to accept but kind of hesitant. Partly because I didn't want to lose that fantasy. And what if I really like this guy? I don't think I can handle long distance relationship. Can LDR really survive?