Fall.....Falling....

So I got to know this guy recently. I first encountered him from the internet. Gah, so cliché right? :p Can't help it. We ARE living in the 21st century after all. What do you expect?

Then we exchanged phone numbers and started texting. Everyday, no matter rain or shine, day or night, we'll text each other. He'll greet me 'good morning' and 'good night'. He'll remind me to have my lunch/dinner. He'll text me after he finished working. Or after I finished working. Somehow, our texting became a routine. A routine that both of us comfortably slip into. Of course there are healthy amount of flirting as well. 

I'm trying not to get my hopes up before meeting him. I had a not-so-good experience previously with another guy. He turned out not to be what I've expected. We are still friends though. Sort of.

But I really have a good feeling about this guy. Okay that sounds wayyyy to familiar. Deja vu much?!

I don't know how this is going to work though. He's a out-of-towner. I'm extremely terrified to meet him. What if I like him too much? And if we were to become an 'item', how would this LDR work? Or what if I don't like him enough? How do I continue this.... friendship? I don't even know what 'this' is, to be exact. Some days, I just can't wait to meet up with him. Just to know for sure, if whatever 'this' is, could ever work. Even if just to end whatever fantasy that I'm having. Sigh, so many contradicting thoughts and feelings. Nooooo I think I'm turning into a girl. LOL.

I know I will meet him eventually. I'm just crossing my fingers that when the day comes, I won't turn into a nervous wreck and screw this up.

Ok back to watching American Idol. My god, those two judges Steve Tyler and J.Lo really bore me. Interesting contestants though.

Online crushes

Recently a friend brutally pointed out the molds that started growing at one corner of my blog. Of course I noticed that. I just pretended not to. I'm not even going to give excuses. So here I am. Cleaning up molds.

On another note, can you have a crush on someone that you've never met before?

I was talking quite a lot to this guy I knew online recently. Everyday we are growing closer and more comfortable with each other. Everyday, we are sharing a little bit more of ourselves with each other. We talk about everything, and nothing.

I know it's stupid.

He's so far away. We haven't even met yet. I don't exactly know how he looks like (although I've seen a picture of him, but reality can be so different right?). He's coming down from KL on this weekend for work. He asked me out for dinner. I wanted to accept but kind of hesitant. Partly because I didn't want to lose that fantasy. And what if I really like this guy? I don't think I can handle long distance relationship. Can LDR really survive?

Courage for LOVE

God knows why I woke up so early today on a Saturday morning when I don't have to go to work. Ugh..... Anyway, since I was awake, I decided to have breakfast in bed, with the delicious almond chocolate mousse cake that I bought yesterday, while watching Gossip Girl DVD, alone (sigh.... why wasn't there a hunk sleeping next to me??). Seriously, all these back-stabbing, cheating, constant lying borderline pathologically, really fascinated me. There must be something wrong with me.

Of course, one of the reasons that drew me back to the show again and again had to be the gorgeous Chace Crawford. He had the most symmetrical face, and those piercing blue eyes.... *drool*

You tell me, how can anyone not drawn to this??!

After I took a shower, I decided to hit the gym. There wasn't that many people around there, probably because most of the population were still recovering from the Friday night craziness.

Of course, as usual my wandering eyes caught this other guy who was also working out there. He had a more down-to-earth kind of good looks instead of the gorgeous Adonis model-like kind that was mention in my previous post. Well-toned body, not too buff, average height. Boy-next-door type of guy. There were only three guys, including me, and two girls working out at that time. The other guy wasn't worth mentioning (I'm such a bitch I know!), so most of the time, I was stealing glances at him. I thought I saw him glancing at me a few times too (or could be my delusion kicking in. What's new?). A few times I had a sudden impulse to approach him, but just couldn't bring myself to. Ugh...... why couldn't he just stop being so stubborn and just come grab me and kiss me senseless already?!! lolllll

Done with gym, I went for lunch at the nearby restaurant. Ordered a spicy noodles (麻辣版面) which turned out to be tooo spicy. I only ate a few bites because no mortals can tolerate that shit without burning their tongue. I still need my taste buds for sex. Among other things. Usually I don't have a habit of wasting food, but for this instance, I had to.

Hmm.... what shall I do tonight?

Piglet : How do you spell love?

Winnie the Pooh : You don't spell it. You feel it!

 

Crushes.... Be still, o my fluttering heart

Recently I met this cute guy whom I had such a crush on. He worked as a waiter in a restaurant near where I was staying (Seriously what is it with cute waiters?! Evil restaurant owners tempting us like that!) So there I was, having my dinner, minding my own business, and suddenly this hottie just sailed by and totally captured my attention. I was literally staring at him for 5 minutes.

He was definitely my type, lean built, average height, with those Jap/Korean good looks, complete with a nice bubble butt. *Swoon* I was smitten.

He wasn't in-charge of my table, so that was a major disappointment. I got this aunty waitress instead. Hrmpph....

Anyway, I was stealing glances at him every now and then, like a teenage school girl. I couldn't decide whether he was playing our field or not, since I was born without the stupid gaydar that everyone else seemed to have. Since he wasn't serving my table, I had no idea how the bloody hell I was to strike a conversation with him.

So after the meal, after I had decided I had ogled him enough for one night, I paid the bill and left. On my way back, I realized I left my phone at the restaurant. So I rushed back and saw him closing the restaurant. Before I could open my mouth and ask him about my phone, he said to me, 'hey you left your phone here just now,' gave me a smile, (he had dimples! *melted*), and returned it to me. I was so shocked that he knew who I was, that I literally couldn't think of anything to say. I just thank him and ran off. STUPID.... stupid... stupid... stupid...... That was THE perfect moment to talk to him right?!  And I blew it.

I'm definitely going back there to stalk him, in a non creepy way. Perhaps snap a couple pictures for you guys to cuci mata? Is that too creepy?  

I'll take one of these to go please.

Yes that's perfect!

Damn, Betty, mind sharing them?