This is the virgin post for my blog. My First time. So you can say that I kinda lost my virginity here, in a literature sense. So nothing about sex here. Tak ada. Mei you. (Ok so maybe a little bit about sex in the later posts. Happy? Haha...)
What triggers my sudden enthusiasm to create this blog? I don't know, maybe it's the narcissistic nature in me that thinks people care what I write. I used to hear people say that there's a little part in everyone that wants to be an author, but only so few can achieve any amount of success in the world of literature. I guess with this little space of mine, I can maybe pretend that I'm one of those many starving authors.
Another reason may be because I read so many blogs from so many gay bloggers in Malaysia, or Malaysian in overseas, that inspired me to put some of my thoughts in this cyber world. I'm really impressed by how beautifully this bloggers can write, and with so much sense of humour. I died laughing at so many of their posts. Some of them include J-boy, Malimo, Leo Nut, Rotiboy, and so many more!
I'm a closeted gay. I'm so far into the closet, sometimes I wonder how would I ever find my way out of it. I mean, if the real world is like the stories of Narnia where I can come out from the other side of closet into another magical world, it would make my life a whole lot easier. But I guess there are too many people like us out there on the same freakin Titanic cruise.
I don't plan to come out through this blog. Or in real life. At least not in the foreseeable future.
I hope one day I will have the courage to come out from the closet and walk proudly on this earth as a gay man. But for now, let me freakin stay in my closet!
dont worry, starting a blog is the stepping stone of coming indirectly one.. haha.. just you wait! lolllllllll
ReplyDeletehaha.... maybe. But slowly lah. Hopefully I won't be completely out only when I'm 90 though! scary-nye....
Deleteei.. just realized i left out the word OUT! lol... why you belum tidor one?
Delete*gasp* that's like THE most important word in your sentence! LOL...I understood what you trying to say la... So smart of me right?
DeleteNot sleepy yet. Not working the next day, so can stay up late late... hehe..
boomz! good.. im working on the final round of revision for tomorrow's paper! thanks for the luck.. oh yea, you can thank me later for drawing readers to your blog.. hahaha.. its the least i could do! :) haha.. muacks! night night..
Deletei know...
i damn perasan one.. hehe... hahahahahahaha
hahaha.... thank you so much, I noticed that! I also know you damn perasan one after reading so many of your posts. Im already de-sensitized. Yikes I hate that word! And I must say are you trying to monopolize the whole comment space of my first ever post? hahaha....
Deletemonopolize my ass! hahahaha... lol.. its a good way to de-stress ok now that the final moment is here.. haha.. (excuses lol).. i feel so bloated.. hm... tomorrow again essay type questions.. why got no hint oneeeeeeeeeee?!! i think i feel bloated cos belum berak.. i think cos stress thats why the berak dont feel like coming out.. urgh.. gosh.. why am i saying all these here? lol.. memang intend to monopolize.. lol... ive been to JB twice only.. one is to Skudai to see bubu during valentines cum cny, one is to go jusco to go shop with my cousin cos kluang damn sad no canggih shopping mall back then.. hahaha.. so basically i havent really been to JB before.. lollllllll
DeleteReally?? You really want me to monopolize your ass? *flattered*
Deletelollll I can see you are a tad too hyper!
A lot of gas is it? Maybe you can try eno, you know that powder thingy that you mix into water and drink it which supposedly helps you to burp out the gas? Imagine you are burping out your farts! Eww....
Does it count as TMI to discuss about one's bowel habits? You tell me Tuls! Dragging me into this conversation. Ish...
Are you from Kluang? If so how can you not been to JB one?! Actually Skudai is so near to JB already, so maybe that one counted lor... hahaha....
I have a feeling that I'm distracting you from your study. You really should get back to your studies.
ei, you quite boomz la.. i like your character and attitude leh.. and your england quite boomz also, i like how you senang pick up my type of humour and like berganding bahu to menge-same-level with me... :)
Deleteanyway, case close, i shitted, now feel so empty, will eat later lol...
im not from Kluang la, my grandparents are so i will go there when im in Malaysia lor either to see them or for special occasions.. im a Subang boy! :)
ok i dowana start flirting with you just yet cos..
1. I dont know how young are you, later you 18 then i cannot accept.. If youre 30 years young then hehe.. goods, i will embrace it to the fullest lolllll...
2. Later people think im some hamsap lou(not to say everyone doesnt know that).. i have to control for now..
3. You wont be coming out meaning you wont wanna have contact from anyone from the blog world so chances are 0... lol..
ok something else that i perasan is that, some bloggers kinda dislike me, and like if i comment here banyak they see tak suka they wont read your blog kinda thing? but like i dont really care and you are better off without them anway because im like the boomz one and they are not.. so.. whatever.. hahahaha.. i know.. the perasaness is the tahap tertinggi already.. haha.. you know how i know? because i am one! *flip hair to the left while rolling eyes*
Lollll I think we are roughly the same age. I'm in my mid-twenties. Just that you like to act young and cute so sometimes you appear somewhat younger. hahaha.....
ReplyDeleteI'll let you in on a secret, *whisper*, you memang hamsap, and yes everyone knows that.
Yeah I did say that I'm not coming out just yet, but who knows what's gonna happen when I meet my Mr Right? I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT YOU SO PLEASE DON'T BE PERASAN OKAY! hahahha.....
And STOP discussing about your bowel habits already! Gosh!
you replied on a wrong thread but its ok, since youre new i forgive you. LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!! AHAHAH... anyway, im younger than you lor.. im in my early 20s.. lol.. so its a good indication geh..
Deleteoh yea, you can see you fit my ideal bf criteria or not then you can send in resume la ok with a cover letter ok? then i shall evaluate!! :)
lol, such a slut, wanna test water kononnyer.. hahahaha... and i wont be perasan one.. *whisper* i know you want me, you just dowana admit..
LOLLLLL..ok thats too much.. hahahaha... but alot of bloggers have became really close friends with me lor, some i skype them first thing in the morning, some we talk about each others ex and compare experience and learn from it kinda thing, some we lepak lepak together, some we mainly for gossips.. some mainly for clubbing, some became good sisters, some i put them under reservation list to date if i end up where they are.. lol... hahahaha.. see, im opening up my options.. lol..
recently bowel habits topic are quite boomz.. i within one month i think got 4 5 post about it one.. i give them nick name tim! dragonssssssss.. hehe..
ei can anyone give me tips arr.. i wanna know whats coming out leh.. stupid chemistry arr tomorrow.. urgh..
enough tuls..later he go deeper into closet bcoz encounter 1st into blogsphere with someone like u.....so scary =P hahahahaha
DeleteI would like to say welcome but u already have such a huge welcoming 'party' by tuls, so i believe u feel welcomed enough here XD
just make sure u stay long enough...quite sad to see fellow blogger suddenly disappear =)
Welcome ^^
Soul232, thanks for welcoming me to your world. I know, I'm so lucky to get tuls to throw me such an amazing welcoming party. I feel blessed hahaha.... (There it goes, I can just feel his head swelling up again -.-) I hope I can keep it alive too.
DeleteTuls, I saw your list of dream guy and I think..... we have the same taste! *gasp* Not sure if that's a good thing or not... lol... But I definitely fit some of your criteria, 12 out of 15 to be exact (Bet that makes you itch to know me more huh? hahhahha...)
Let me have a look at your reservation list! Maybe there is a guy from there suitable for me since we have similar tastes? (Ok scratch that, that came out more desperate than I like.) But I do envy that you found so many...kindred spirits?... in the blogging world.
Anyways, I'm so glad my days of craming for chemistry are over. Never did like it, or any good at it, in secondary school or in college. But all the best to you.
:) i think my job here is done.. haha..
Deleteno spirits spirits ok.. i like to do humans not spirits please... lollllll
ei 12/15 arr.. can arr can arr... i wanna know.. lol.. *desperately*
*whisper* ei, email me leh...
Email you what exactly? *blur*
Delete*slap* aiyor.. you slow la.. nevermind la.. ignore ignore.. hahahaha.. and why you post all those pictures up geh? are you turning your blog into a picture blog? i started mine like you also but now i look back quite childish.. hahahaha.. damn lame... but dont worry la your blog will grow as your grow as well.. hahahaha.. lol i feel like im 45 now.. k k enough.. and please remove the word verification in your setting thanks.. if cannot/tak tau how then nevermind k.. muacks..
Deleteouch... No I want to know! You want to know which criteria I fit into your dream guy izzit? If I do, totally not mysterious anymore liao.
DeleteYou old soul! Shoo... don't come influence me, I wanna stay young forever! hahaha......
Ok I removed the word verification thingy already. Anything for you tuls. muaks.
lol nak main mysterious ya? boleh jugak.. but its good la.. haha...
Deleteyoung forever? sounds like me leh... hahahaha...
anything for me? awwwwwwwww... youre too sweet.. and please dont flirt with marimo in front of me, i send assassin to jb to finish you then you know... loll
You called dibs to marimo? Damn! Haha... no need to send assassin all, you can have him. But there's no reason the rest of us can't admire/drool after him from afar right?
Deleteim doing that myself too.. admiring from afar-ther-than-you lor... 10000 miles apart literally like rihanna's song...
DeleteWorkweek come to the blogosphere!
ReplyDeleteDamned! Welcome becomes workweek! Damned auto text! :-)
DeleteHaha thanks! I had to scratch my head for a second there wondering what's 'workweek'.
DeleteGot legend tulsy introduce de wor must be so honoroed hahahahhaa :P
ReplyDeleteWelcome to the blogosphere ;)
Thanks. I'm really glad and lucky to have the famous tuls for noticing of me and introducing me to the wonderful blogsphere. Very honored indeed!
DeleteOmg la tuls.. Sweat....
ReplyDeleteToo hyper/stress dy..
Anyways, welcome to the blogsphere! haha, So call closeted la.. Like what tuls says, you will slowly come out to people as you blog along. I was damn closeted when i started blogging, and now.. dont say dy.. haha! Im still closeted but i got one leg and a hand out of the closet dy, preparing to withdraw back to narnia at any moment if anything goes wrong. Anyways! Looking forward to read more from you! Maybe about your read virginity? haha! =D
Thanks! I will try my best to keep it alive, hahaha....Will definitely talk about how I lost my virginity in the later posts! lollll such a slut! Thanks for stopping by!
DeleteHaha tuls is really hitting it off with Jason.
ReplyDeleteWelcome to the blog circle Jason! Let's see what kind of bitch you are... You can tell a lot from the way a person writes ;)
Oh and if there really was a magical world on the other side of the closet, it would be a land where only guys exist, and everyone is naked because clothing is forbidden. The mode of transportation is flying unicorns and every building must be painted with the colours of the rainbow. OMG so cliche haha.
You are so gay J-boy, flying unicorns and rainbow buildings lol, but I like it! Especially the naked part! So notty notty. haha...
DeleteThanks for opening your arms to welcome me! I'm really lucky/blessed/honored/grateful/flattered to have so many of you stopping by for my debut. ;)
Oh that sounds very familiar. I once said I wouldn't come out too, but I did, much faster than I thought. Blogging as a gay person is good in the sense that you put your thoughts together as you write, which makes you realise a lot of things. Welcome and have fun. And thank you for the backlink love. =)
ReplyDeleteHahaha.... who knows, maybe one day if I ever found THE ONE, I might run out of the closet so fast before you can say 'whatttt'.
DeleteI think I found peace in writing these stuff down. Before this, most of the feelings were kinda suppressed. Now at least I have a channel to let it flow. I think it's healthy, and very therapeutic. NOT that I think there's anthying wrong with me!
Thanks for stopping by. ;)