I feel so suffocated these days. Don't know why. Probably because the loneliness is creeping up on me and choking me.
So I was chatting with this guy Zack this morning. Charming chap. Stayed not too far away from me. Cute. Mixed chinese portugese ethnicity. *gasp*. Spoke good English. He wanted to hook up. I was skeptical. After all I was just starting to get to know him. It went quite well until he said, "I need to be honest with you," Jeng jeng... Alarms went crazy in my head. It was never a good news when someone said that.
Zack: I'm bi. And I have a gf.
I was like, wait say whattt? I went quiet for a while trying to process that information.
Me: Damn damn fuck fuck fuck!!
Zack: Why are you so upset? You can't accept that I'm bi?
Me: No, I just can't accept that you have a gf.
Zack: To be honest, I am just looking for a permanent cock sucker (his words, not mine).
Me: Why can't you go play with your gf then?
Zack: Because she's a virgin.
Me: I'm sorry but I don't hook up with men in a relationships. I don't like complications. And hooking up with you would definitely attract complications.
OMFG, what is wrong with these people???! I can't understand people who are attached, and yet still acted like they are available. Get the fuck away and don't waste my time. Assholes.
Ok so I was quite grateful that he was honest enough to tell me that he wasn't exactly 'available'. Some people didn't even have the decency to do that until it was too late and you fell head over heels over them.
I know, I know, he was only looking to hookup and not some permanent long term relationship like the rest of us (ahem me), but who knows what will happen next? I mean if we have chemistry and passion, maybe, just maybe, it might lead somewhere. Wishful thinking?
** Edit** I think I sent out the wrong message at the last paragraph there. I would never, ever, not in a million
years, not if he's the last man on earth, hookup with someone who is in a relationship. What I meant was, hooking
up with someone just for 'ahem' sex, but hoping that it will turn out to be more
than casual sex, i.e. long term relationship.